Fine With It

I have relented in negotiating
let the other ones have their way
I have lost any sense of devotion
I am walking alone, as they say

a decision in the guts below me
has overturned the shit in my head
I was up many nights wondering how we’d survive
but I’ve let that all go
and I’m fine with it
I’m fine, dealing so far

I’ve gathered up a little momentum
it’s easier with no one to blame
when it’s time to accuse or abandon
in the dark I’ll be hearing my name
and I’m fine with it
I’m fine with it this way
I’m fully engaged
I’m fine with it
alone at this stage

I am tending to my inspiration
a nervous little clutch of songs
among them I have found some communion
and pride for how they’re coming along

still I toss in the night when a change isn’t quite
to the specs that I had planned
there are days though I try out a thousand variations
I get nowhere but where I began

and I’m fine with it
I’m fine with it
I’m fine with it
I’m fine with it